I stumbled upon this video on youtube last week, and I really liked it. It kind of was an answer to a prayer I’ve been holding onto.
I feel like I’ve always had a really good testimony of my Savior Jesus Christ and my Father in Heaven. I know they both live and love me very much. I know that I am a Daughter of God and that I will return to live with him one day, as I follow in His footsteps.
Some days are a lot easier than others. It’s easy to just read the scriptures, and then give Brady a kiss and go to sleep; wake up the next morning and start my day without even thinking of reading in the morning and praying too. It’s so easy to just read to read, and not really get anything out of it. Now I know nobody is perfect, and I’m simply happy that Brady and I read the scriptures every single night together, and I really need to pick back up where I left on in D&C, in the mornings. But something that I’ve been pondering while we ready scriptures together, is what am I getting out of this? What is this teaching me? How can I apply this to my life? Am I feeling the Spirit? Should we start praying before we read? And all of these questions and emotions overcome me, but it’s just too much to ruin the moment of reading scriptures.
I always pray, to continually do my best to get the most I can out of the scriptures, to find my answers, comfort and any possible way to share it with others. But when I stumbled upon this video, it really hit me. It really made me recall and think back to the Prophet Joseph Smith and his trial time of knowing the truth, and where to find it.
Can I too find it? Can I continue to find it? Can I, Ashley, do as James directs, that is, ask of God? I bear witness to you that yes, I can. Anytime, anywhere, no matter what. I can always call upon my Father in Heaven with questions, seeking truth. I know He will answer me, in His time. Whether that be what I want in life or not, I know He has best interest in me. I will do as James directs and I will always ask of God. I will always seek to find the truth, every single day. I will fight for it. I will build my testimony, I will become strong, and I will become like my Father in Heaven. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
“8 During this time of great excitement my mind was called up to serious reflection and great uneasiness; but though my feelings were deep and often poignant, still I kept myself aloof from all these parties, though I attended their several meetings as often as occasion would permit. In process of time my mind became somewhat partial to the Methodist sect, and I felt some desire to be united with them; but so great were the confusion and strife among the different denominations, that it was impossible for a person young as I was, and so unacquainted with men and things, to come to any certain conclusion who was bright and who was wrong.
9 My mind at times was greatly excited, the cry and tumult were so great and incessant. The Presbyterians were most decided against the Baptists and Methodists, and used all the powers of both reason and sophistry to prove their errors, or, at least, to make the people think they were in error. On the other hand, the Baptists and Methodists in their turn were equally zealous in endeavoring to establish their own tenets and disprove all others.
10 In the midst of this war of words and tumult of opinions, I often said to myself: What is to be done? Who of all these parties are right; or, are they all wrong together? If any one of them be aright, which is it, and how shall I know it?
11 While I was laboring under the extreme difficulties caused by the contests of these parties of religionists, I was one day reading the Epistle of James, first chapter and fifth verse, which reads: If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
12 Never did any passage of scripture come with more power to the heart of man than this did at this time to mine. It seemed to enter with great force into every feeling of my heart. I reflected on it again and again, knowing that if any person needed wisdom from God, I did; for how to act I did not know, and unless I could get more wisdom than I then had, I would never know; for the teachers of religion of the different sects understood the same passages of scripture so differently as to destroy all confidence in settling the question by an appeal to the Bible.
13 At length I came to the conclusion that I must either remain in darkness and confusion, or else I must do as James directs, that is, ask of God. I at length came to the determination to “ask of God,” concluding that if he gave wisdom to them that lacked wisdom, and would give liberally, and not upbraid, I might venture.”
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What did you learn this beautiful Sunday?