I met up with a really good friend today and we both had a very much-needed talk. It was so great. She (probably unknowingly) helped me make decisions that I was just so afraid to make. But one of them was making the decision and move forward with it. When I started second-shooting with her last year, I was having the time of my life. My skills shot through the roof and I couldn’t believe my eyes. I can’t even tell you what it was but something just happened.
It was around the time my dad had passed away. He was my biggest connection with photography and I just wasn’t sure I could keep doing this as a business. I had invested so much time and $$$$$$$$ and I didn’t want to be a failure. It was what I needed, second-shooting. I loved it. I loved assisting and helping. I loved being that person that someone could rely on. I loved being there to help and still be apart of something so sweet and amazing and LEARN. I learned SO much from her. In fact, I learned so much from ALL of my photographer friends who let me assist and/or second-shoot.
Things come into our lives for a reason, and lately for mine, they’ve been coming in seasons and that’s it. So, let’s get to the point so I can quit rambling.
Remember when I blogged about stepping down and doing it as more of a hobby business? Today I finally feel ready to be true to myself and my business.
I never wanted to admit this because I didn’t want people to judge me or attack me for various reasons. I am a Mormon, I am of the LDS-faith, I am a Christian… I live, eat, sleep, breathe the gospel of Jesus Christ and God. So please don’t judge me before taking a deep breath and waiting an hour before you say something, if you do.
I only want to shoot Mormon temple exits, couples and family photos. I don’t want to shoot receptions, or engagements or bridals. I love temple coverage! I just do, it’s where I feel my strongest and most of my passion. This isn’t against anyone, this isn’t because of someone (past, present, future client, friend, family, photographer, etc). This is a personal choice based off of experiences, a lot of prayer, a lot of waiting and learning, and being patient.
But what I want even more for myself and my camera is to live my life and record the happy and everyday moments. I want to start carrying my camera around and take video and photos of my husband and I, our live, adventures, family, friends. I just want to shoot (like my sweet friend said today), I just want to shoot. I want to be me. I’m ready for the next season.
What do I shoot that makes me unbelievably happy?
• LDS Temples
• My sisters family
• Pretty flowers and nature
• Couples exiting the temple after their sealing
• Sunrises and sunsets
• Birthday photos for my nephews
• Lucy — even if they are blurry
• I love taking photographs like the ones on my Instagram
I love printing photos and scrapbooking. I love blogging and posting IG photos of temples and quotes to inspire and uplift. I love pretty feeds with purpose. I want to shoot these things because I want to and it’s what makes me happy and starting today, I’m going to be doing just that. I’m shooting for me, and temple coverage only (and still available for second-shooting). I’m only going to explain myself once because I need to be 100% happy and true to myself or everything else in my life will not succeed. Where my business will end up next year, I’m not sure. Am I content with shooting these things that make me unbelievably happy? You bet your bottom dollar.
***Disclaimer: my website will still be up for the year, my Facebook page will be up for the year, my Instagram will still exist. As I adjust to the changes over the coming months, these things will not change.