I’m super late with this but better late than never.
I remember waking up with each event… every second and every minute of what today was like exactly 1 year ago. I remember having last hugged my dad and heard him speak the night before so I spent some time this day, 1 year ago, talking to my dad about different things and just holding his hand.
I wore a great shirt today. Grabbed some Diet Coke and Peanut M&M’s in his honor :) I miss my dad so much. We met at Texas Roadhouse together as a family, that was one of my dads favorite restaurant. The sun was shining after it had been raining all day and the day before. The time we planned to meet at his grave with more family, it was supposed to rain really hard. It rained the week after his passing, so it was almost expected. God must’ve been listening that day because it didn’t start to pour really hard until we all left his grave. We are so thankful for that and we know that dad was with us. We shared some thoughts, shared a lot of hugs, let balloons go, bubbles were happening and boys running around! They know that this is where Grandpa is and that this is his grave. They’re the most tender boys. They all love Grandpa so much!
I love my mom, she is so unbelievably strong. I love my brother, for helping my mom find the words that she just can’t seem to find. I love my grandma and grandpa, my uncles who are spitten images of my dad. I love my cousins, both on my moms and dads side of the family. I love my friends who reached out this day to remind me that they were thinking of me. I love my husband, who took the day off of work to be with me during this day and for being by my side through the last year.
It has NOT been easy. The year of firsts definitely made itself known, but we’re past that. We’re over the anticipated “1 year” since dad left us. My gosh I miss him so much. I’ve changed so much since that day, a year ago. Just doing my best, and our best, to make him happy because we absolutely know that’s what he wanted. He didn’t want his death to be sad forever. We love you dad and miss you so much.