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Mr. Scooter Boy

October 18, 2017

I miss Scooter so much!! We’ve had this cutie pie for his entire life. His long 15 years of life. For about a year now he’s had health issues. Bladder stones, arthritis, anxiety, and a few more things. Gosh I just miss him so much.

Last Sunday (not just this past Sunday), we had a neighbor over visiting with my mom and Scooter was laying down in his bed. He was laying there for less than a minute before he yelped and started to walk off of his bed, but slowly. I could tell that he was in pain all of a sudden but something in my heart just told me that it was different pain.. like something was really wrong. I sent my sister a text to let her know but he kept yelping every time he tried to lay down. We weren’t really sure why but she called me and told me to give him some medicine to see if that will help for the time being because it usually does. He’s on crazy meds at this point because he’s so old! Haha poor fella.

Later that night my mom and sister decided to take him to the emergency vet. The vet told them it was probably a slipped disk or something in his neck causing him extreme pain but the only way to know for sure is to do an MRI. MRI’s cost $$$$ and he’s 15 years old. He’s already struggling so much and MRI’s are expensive. The next morning, my sister told me this information and told me that we may be faced with the decision to put him down. I was shocked and not expecting it at all. She was planning on calling his vet right when they opened to take him in so she could take a look at him (because she knows his “unique” case!! lol), but I had to leave for work so I told her to call me as soon as she knew what his vet had to say.

I was only at work for maybe 5 minutes before my sister called me and confirmed that his vet agreed with the emergency vet and that we would likely need an MRI and with him being so old, we are faced with that decision. I just started bawling and luckily my boss let me go home to be with my family and I am so so so so grateful, to this day!! When I got home we were all just a mess. It was so hard. I didn’t expect to cry as hard and as much as I did. Not because I didn’t love him a lot or anything, I just didn’t think it would affect me the way that it did. I love Scooter so much.

Jessica always planned to buy Scooter a cheese burger when we put him down so we headed to McDonald’s together (my mom, Jess and I). Dumb McDonald’s wasn’t selling lunch yet so we just got him an egg mcmuffin or something. He devoured the thing like his typical self. Gosh, just writing this makes my heart miss him so much. When we arrived at the vet, we were able to take our time with him. His vet was amazing and so so considerate of us and this difficult time. Jess got to hold Scooter when he passed and I’m so glad. I think it helped her through it. She has taken AMAZING care of him over the last couple of years as his body has slowly started getting worse. We all just cried, said our goodbyes, gave him so many kisses and cried more when he was gone. I have never experienced putting a dog down. I’ve had Scooter my entire life.

How do people do this?? HOW DOES THE VET DO THIS?? My heart is just broken. We were all so shattered. We came with Scooter and we left without him :( :( :( My heart hurts for him. We’re doing okay… I think the best we can. It’s amazing how much I miss the most annoying things about him but I do. There’s no bark when the doorbell rings. When food is dropped on the floor, there’s no dog to quickly eat it up. There’s no snuggling or running around the kitchen. No more squeaky toys or Christmas presents. No more treats or dog food. No more “letting him out” one more time before we all go to bed. No more giving him his medicine every day. When you walk through the garage door after work, he isn’t there to greet you anymore. Just the other day I had been out browsing the store for a couple of hours and the thought came to my mind, “I should get home and let Scooter out,” only to realize that he wasn’t going to be there. I just miss knowing he was upstairs when I was home. I miss telling him to shut up when he couldn’t stop barking at my husband coming home from work. The boys have asked us where he went and we just tell him that he lives in heaven now with grandpa (my dad). 

I just don’t think I can ever own a dog again. I don’t ever ever ever ever want to do that again. It has been one of the hardest, and different, deaths I’ve ever had in my life. We miss him so much. Especially my sister. We have so many fun photos to look at, videos to watch, dumb memories to laugh about… we’re going to be okay, it’s just getting used to life without him that’s kind of hard. I’m glad I have the support system that I do because we’ve lost a lot of people over the last two years. 

Scooter has been a best friend of mine for a long time. When I experienced loss in high school, Scooter just knew that I needed extra loving. He just knew that snuggling with me, laying with me in the middle of the night while I cried, was what I needed. He was very connected when it came to snuggle time. He did dumb stuff, and he just made me laugh all the time. Like, I remember specifically, I was playing ball with him inside the house (when he was young & wild). We would throw the ball down the stairs and then laugh at how his butt wiggled when he ran down the stairs. LOL I threw the ball towards the stairs and it smacked him in the face, right between his eyes. I laughed so hard, forever!!!! Hahaha, seriously. Or the many, many times that we threw a blanket over him and then said, “Where’s Scooter? Scooooooter!! Where’s Scooter?” and he would go NUTS under the blanket trying to find a way out. Hahaha we drove him crazy with that.

We love you Scooter!! So much. No matter how much you drove us crazy. Please annoy dad in heaven for us!!! ;) Until we meet again.

New

September 2, 2017

Starting this week, I will be working for Deseret Book!! I’m so excited!! It is my most favorite store in the entire world and I cannot wait for the adventure. If I had any other dream job that wasn’t my last, this would be it. I could get lost in that store for hours. SO MUCH GOODNESS!!!

It’s about the same hours, less pay :( but it’ll be fun to have during the holiday season! I’m so excited for this adventure!

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Okay, let’s be honest. I meant to post this on Saturday buuuuuut I was out of town with little to no internet service.

Brady and I headed up to Idaho to stay with his mom and step-dad over the weekend. We went to the Eastern Idaho State Fair and saw tons of animals, died in the heat and had some decent food. I was wiped out and frankly, straight up hangry. We watched the movies Sully and Shut In. Sully was fabulous and Tom Hanks is just a really good actor. Shut In wasn’t even scary at all… it was jumpy, and I totally didn’t see it coming but wasn’t scary at all.

Sunday morning we woke up, got ready for the day and made a trip out to Montpelier. Brady’s step-dad owns a franchise out there, so we went to take a look at the area, while they were working at the fair.

Pause the story.

Brady’s step-dad, Barry, is an audiologist selling hearing aids in Pocatello, ID. We’ve teased Brady over the last couple of years that he should follow in his footsteps. When we decided to seriously consider it, Brady did a discovery day (job shadow) and couldn’t stop talking about it after. We both felt really good about it and we are excited. This is completely from left field but God’s timing couldn’t be more perfect, and I’ll get to that. Barry owns a few franchise in different locations in the Eastern-Idaho area, including Montpelier. The plan is for Brady and I to live in Montpelier, and he’ll cover that office and the surrounding areas while Barry works solely in Pocatello.

Back to the story.

We drove out to Montpelier with a few homes-for-sale on a list to look at while we’re out there. They’re small homes and mostly old but some are nice and we’re excited about it. When we got there, more homes had for-sale signs in their front yard than we saw online, so it was fun to see more. I was pained because even though we went up this weekend to see if we’ll be going earlier this year, instead of in late-December, early-January like we’ve been planning. Our plans have changed and we’ve tried to make going up early work so many different times that I’m growing impatient, fast!!!

Though we wish it were the case (going up early), it just isn’t right now like we thought and hoped. I’m really bummed out. I just don’t want to move in the middle of winter to a place with MORE snow than we already get here! I’m just really upset. After this weekend, I am more than ready to move. I am more than ready to be up there and get this new way of life going. I’m not even sure what I’ll do when we get there… I’ll need to pick up a hobby or something. But I’m dying to get there.
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With that being said, yes, Brady and I are moving to Idaho. We are moving late-December/early-January. Although I was excited for my new job at Deseret Book, I’m just not tonight. I’m not in a very good mood and my patience is running extremely thin. I wish it wasn’t the case and I’m sure I’ll just have to get over it in the morning and enjoy my first day at my new job but I just can’t be excited for it yet. I wish we were going up to Idaho in a few weeks. I’ve been telling people here and there, and our plans have changed at least 10+ times, but this is probably the final time. Unless we decide to do something about it and move ourselves up there and just work until Brady starts training. But I highly doubt that’ll happen at this point.

Maybe just say a prayer for me. That we’ll be able to get through these next four months peacefully, especially with a pay-cut. That I’ll be able to get over myself and quit the attitude and just be patient and grateful with God. I also can’t believe we’re for sure moving, and we might stay in Idaho forever. So, with that being said, I’d love to see all of my friends more over these next few months before I go. Or maybe y’all will just have to make the trip up to the lake and we’ll party one weekend :)

It feels so good to just get all of my frustration out. Gosh. Here’s to the new week with hopefully a better attitude. I’ll tell you more about my new job after my first shift tomorrow!

xoxo

Living a Dream

September 1, 2017

Today is my last day as an employee of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I first started working here in July of 2014 and today I say goodbye!

My dad was working for the Church at the time that I was hired. He helped me get a job and I’m so grateful!! I was actually looking for a job when my dad offered to send my resume to a few managers to see if any were hiring. I found out on my first wedding anniversary that I got the job! One I will never forget. The team I worked on specifically, we are called the Media Library team. We publish, maintain, create and add metadata, download options and more, the images and videos, and audio on LDS.org’s Media Library. It is the center for all of Church media. My team also helped launch the LDS Media Library app this year. They have BIG plans for the app, and more, and I cannot wait to see it come to life! So much has been in the works since before I was even hired.

Fun fact: My dad started the creation of the LDS Media Library app and my team finished it. It was originally supposed to be only for the Brethren but it changed :)

It’s been a very long, trying, exciting and fun 3 years. I’m going to miss being on Temple Square everyday. I’m going to miss going to the temple right after work, and only needing to cross the street. I’m going to miss the crappy vending machines with the stupid snack options. The ice machine has been heaven and has saved us all. I’ll miss being able to business casual, sandals/open-toed shoes… I’ll miss all of the fun birthday parties that my team throws for one another. I’m going to miss the personalized birthday cards, too!

I remember my dad most with this job. He and I worked in the same building for the three weeks that he went back to work. I miss stopping by his desk on the other side of the wall. I miss getting rides home from him. I miss the one time we rode the trax to work together, in the winter, and never rode it together again. I miss him stopping by my desk, snagging candy from the bowl and asking me how my day was going. I miss him asking me about the creepy Clown, Clownsie, and why he was sitting on the desk next to mine. Or the time when he brought my team donuts… I remember exactly where he used to park his truck too… I miss seeing it in the parking lot.

Today, I’ll turn in my badge, my parking pass and hug my friends goodbye. This job has been a dream. I have never in my life, imagined ever working for the Church, but that dream came true. Leaving on good terms, and knowing this is apart of God’s plan for me makes this departure easier. My heart aches for my dad. The building we used to work in together, seeing him at work, him helping me get the job… the love and support from my team and the many, many, friends of my dad when he passed away. I know that God put this job in my life for a purpose. It truly helped me get through some of the hardest days of before and after my dad passed away. Being able to stay connected to my dad’s friends has been fun and really helpful.

I’m going to miss my work bestie Shaylee so much. This girl is amazing!! I sent her resume to my boss only a few months after I was hired, and then she joined the team! We have had adventure upon adventure here. The getting stuck together in the revolving doors… the one time that I got my selfie-stick button stuck and it took 120 photos of us laughing trying to fix it. How about that time (well, every time), we had a meeting and when either one of us was missing, it was pure torture. Haha, we have basically only survived because of each other. She has listened to my endless conversations about life, missing dad, marriage joys and so much more. (What are we going to do without Skype!?) We’ve become such good friends over the year and I’m really going to miss her.

I’m so sad. It hasn’t really hit me until Tuesday and it’s just kind of been a bit sad since. I know that what’s coming next is falling into place perfectly and an answer to many impatient prayers. It’s been a good run and I’m proud of myself, what I’ve learned and who I’ve become because of it.


What’s next?


Stay tuned for tomorrow’s post!!

Hiking to Cecret Lake

August 20, 2017

I’m way late to posting this but back in August, Brady and I went on a hike to Cecret Lake! I’ve really wanted to hike this for a while now. My dad and my mom did it a long time ago and loved it! Plus, my dads photos of the lake are just gorgeous! :)

It was a hot Sunday afternoon when I felt like I just needed to get out of the house. I was feeling anxious and just couldn’t make it out to church that day, so we opted to spend time together outside. It wasn’t a super difficult hike, except for the very last part right before the lake. It is straight-up rock!! Like, very narrow path, rocky, and just… harder than the dirt trail! I was surprised to see little kids doing this hike!

Anyway, it was a really good Sunday and a beautiful hike that I’m so glad I finally got to do this summer! I’m really sad for summer to be over!!