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Never Alone

I think it’s really easy for us to feel alone. I feel that way often, even if I know that I’m not.

Sunday’s can be really hard for me. I’m not sure why, but I can experience really bad anxiety when it comes to going to Church. It’s not because I don’t want to go, or using it as an excuse. All I know is it gets hard for me to breath and I cannot relax. This past Sunday, we had a baby blessing. With that comes what feels like a billion people. We already have a big ward as it is, so it was a full house! We were all dying of heat. I just felt like I was sweating to death and being sick just doesn’t mix well.

I got up after the Sacrament and left to the foyer where it was much cooler!! I remained there all of Sacrament meeting and it was really nice. It was just me and nobody else, which I was really surprised. While I was sitting out there, I saw this picture of Jesus Christ hanging on the wall. Now, Brady and I have been in many different wards during our four years of marriage, so I’ve seen this picture in this building, for probably 95% of my life. I thought to myself, why is this wall so bare? Why don’t they get a new image of Christ to hangup? It’s so outdated. It’s as old as I am! But then I decided to take a picture of it because I was quickly reminded that all we need in life is Jesus Christ. Yes, cheesy symbolism. But it’s so true.

Christ may be the only thing on this wall, but that’s okay. Because the only thing we need in life is our Savior, Jesus Christ. It is so easy to get distracted and forget who we really want to be. I know that I want to be like my Savior. I am faaaaar from being like Him, but I do my best every day. I can’t tell you most scripture stories, but I can bear my testimony on Christ. I can’t tell you much of His life, but I know that it was incredible.

Remember, the next time you might feel lonely. Christ is there. He is always there. Even if He is the only one, He is still there.

I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.John 14:18, KJV

Watching #ldsconf

Twice a year, members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints gather for a meeting called General Conference. We watch, and listen to our Prophet, his counselors, the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles and many other General Authorities of the Church. They give amazing talks, and it’s always a great time of year! Many members meet inside the General Conference Center if they have tickets, and many members watch live online, on TV, or the radio from wherever they are! I’ve been blessed to be able to attend General Conference in the General Conference Center many times but I also love staying home and watching it on TV!

Because of his health, our Prophet, Thomas S. Monson, stayed home to watch General Conference and we missed seeing him on the stand! We also had an Apostle of the Quorum of the Twelve absent from General Conference for his health as well. This Apostle was Elder Robert D. Hales, and sadly, he passed away just 15 minutes after the first session of General Conference ended. We will miss him dearly and we thank him for his incredible service!!

Brady and I stayed home together and it was really nice. I took a ton of photos of Scooter so, bear with me. We heard some amazing talks and you can watch/listen/read all of them by click here! I promise you won’t regret it! Hearing the words of our leaders in such a difficult time is so comforting. Our Father in Heaven is truly watching over us and I know that because of the testimonies shared by our leaders. I made some conference quotes for the General Women’s session of conference so I’ll definitely be making some for the remaining sessions. Be on the lookout! Also, in the title of my post is the hashtag, #ldsconf. This is the official hashtag the LDS Church uses for their social media during General Conference. You can view the hashtag on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, and probably many more websites!

We were out with Brady’s mom and step-dad when the first session was going so I missed that. I missed the second session because I had to get ready for work, so I’ll be catching up on the Saturday session’s today! I’m so excited :)

I have had many notebooks over the years for General Conference. I just recently purchased the Conference Notes notebook from Deseret Book before this fall’s session of #ldsconf. They have tiny ones, and then ones about the size of my hand. They are the PERFECT little notebook to write down thoughts, quotes from the talks and it just is so perfect. Haha, I’m definitely getting more of these for next conference!!

 

What did you love most about General Conference? What was your favorite talk?

#collaboreads: A Brand New Book

The brand new book I chose to read this month is called Seek This Jesus by Neill Marriott. The cover surely caught my attention and I knew I had to read it for myself.

It’s phenomenal. It’s absolutely amazing! Neill shares so much of her life in this book. She shares the life she had while attending a Methodist church in the south, to feeling forgotten by God, to joining The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (Mormons). I just am in awe at her journey!

My favorite part of the book are pages 69 – 73. She shares the story of her daughter who passed away from getting hit by a car. But it’s the way she talks about staying connected to God, grieving and what each year felt like when it came to connecting with God and grieving her loss.

I think it left an impression on me, obviously because my dad passed away and I’m still grieving so bad. But I don’t think I’ve ever had someone describe grieving the way she does in those pages. The transitions and how each year passing is different but she grew closer to God each year.

I am just certain that everyone needs to own this book. I wouldn’t necessarily say anybody who isn’t LDS wouldn’t enjoy it, but it is centered around God, and Jesus Christ. Their love for us and a woman’s story. I give it 5 stars! 

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Looking Back

I had a conversation with someone recently, and it sort of lit a small fire inside my heart.

I am always trying to find validation somewhere. I’m always trying to find my worth in worldly things. I only say that because everything I’ve tried to tie my worth to, has failed. I talk a lot about failure, hard times and sadness here on this blog. It’s just been my life for a very long time.

My last therapy session was really hard. It’s kind of what I call the “graduation” session. When you don’t really have anything else to work through. You know that therapy is there, if you ever need to come back, but that you’re doing okay. Before the session was over, my therapist asked me, “Does it make you uncomfortable not being in crisis?” And I just started crying. It does. It totally does. It’s so uncomfortable for me. It’s so uncomfortable for me to just be happy, each and everyday and have “nothing” to work through. Nothing to think about or ponder about. It’s just gone.

I’m not saying that I’m 100% okay. Because we all have our fair-share of crappy days, but for the most part I’ve been doing really well. I was going to share this on my personal blog but I felt it more appropriate for here. Looking back on my blog(s), Instagram, Twitter and Facebook, I notice a consistent share in what truly makes me happy. What truly matters most to me that I choose to share with the world.

My Mormon faith.
My husband/marriage.
My family.
& the occasional hobby, interests, or quote goodness.

That’s what I want to continue doing. That’s really what I want to live my life doing. I did it before marriage, before college, before photography. I happily shared what I loved and I didn’t hold back. Sometimes I’m particular about what I share, because we only ever want to share what’s GOOD, #amiright? But I want to try to be more open to the goodness in my life and around me, and change that. I want to post crappy photos to my Instagram, or share about my most recent vending machine problem experience. I love it. I love love love love it.

Most importantly though, sharing my faith. I love being a Mormon. I love being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I love going to Church. I love going to the temple!! I love reading my scriptures and my most favorite store in the whole wide world, is Deseret Book. It’s natural for me to feel this way. I feel most comfortable living this way because it’s me. It’s just me. It’s who I am.

I’m sorry if you dislike those who “overshare” their faith, but I’m not sorry that it’s who I am and it’s what makes me most happy in life. I do have an idea of a product I might sell if I get enough interest but that’s a secret in the works!

xoxo

May we take seriously the Lord’s call to “be of good cheer, for I will lead you along.” He leads us by the Holy Ghost. May we live close to the Spirit, acting quickly upon our first promptings, knowing they come from God. I bear witness of the power of the Holy Ghost to guide us, guard us, and ever be with us, in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

– Ronald A. Rasband

Happy Anniversary!!

Brady and I had a really relaxed anniversary! It was on a Monday which was totally a bummer but whatevs, we had a good time! We stayed local and relaxed at home. We watched something together, and then for dinner, we went to the Cheesecake Factory Mmmmm!! So stinkin’ good! Brady had a gift card that we used. Thank goodness! That place can be expensive!! But so good.

I still can’t believe we’ve been married 4 years. 4 YEARS. I know many of you out there think that it’s nothing, but to me, that’s a long time. That’s 2 missions!! ;) I’m learning to find who I am with Brady. That probably doesn’t make any sense but I’ve struggled to leave my single life with friends behind, and be with my husband friend more! Not that it’s wrong to have friends when you’re married but I struggled with this life changing event. I love Brady with all of my heart, and we have endured so much. But when I finally decided for myself that it was time to change my nutrition and exercise habits, it literally changed everything in my life.

My relationship and friendship with Brady became stronger. I started to cherish, more, the time that we spent together. When I had free time, I would spend as much of it with him that I could before he had to go to work or something. I haven’t given Brady enough credit, and on this blog it looks like I battle this life alone, but it’s not true. Brady is the only person who has been through every teeny tiny thing with me. Like when I worked ALL of my hours for 2 months straight, with zero panic attacks OR missing work. He held me that one time I cried all day because I was physically feeling so depressed.

He is my everything and does everything, just for me. I’m grateful he is mine, and forever!!


The day before our anniversary (Sunday), we went to Church and then to my grandparents’ home for a birthday bbq. My grandparents’ birthday are 2 days apart so it was fun to celebrate both of them! Because of this, we also got to see our Lucy girl. We just love her so much and miss her everyday but are so grateful for her “foster family,” my grandparents & aunt.