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In the coming year

September 12, 2017

I’m excited for the coming year. I’ve got some ideas of things I’d like to start doing more, maybe some things I’d like to learn. One thing in particular that I’d like to start doing is reading more books. I don’t like to have regrets, but I wished I would’ve picked up a love for reading when I was younger. There’s so many books that I want to read and never enough time! With the new year and new schedule, I’m hoping to make more time to do so!

I’ve got over 500 books on my TBR list.. not sure that I’ll ever get through them all but I’d LOVE to start reading more of them. I’d love to start reading different genre’s. Many bloggers/book reviewers that I follow read so many different kinds of books and it inspires me to do the same! I’ve always stuck with my normal LDS, Young Adult clean romance novels but I’d love to branch out and learn so much more. I am LDS so it’s obvious that my go-to books are definitely LDS based and I’ve never been one to care for much more than YA romance, YA fiction, LDS fiction/non-fiction, murder-mystery/mystery, self-help, etc. We’ll see what I get to!

I also have some goals to get more familiar with my Silhouette CAMEO 3 machine. I can’t seem to figure out the darn thing. Haha! Anyone have some awesome resources or tutorials they loved? Send them my way. I don’t have anything particular that I want to create… actually, maybe I do. PLANNER STICKERS!! You know, those cute stickers people make for the Erin Condren planners and stuff? I have some personal planner sticker ideas that I want to try and make. Wish me luck!

I’d also love to start a garden. Probably just a flower garden because let’s be real…. I won’t eat anything you can grow (at least, that most people grow). Maybe grapes, or…. actually, idk. Haha!! I also can’t wait to get a dog or two again. B and I have decided to adopt this time, through the Humane Society (wherever our local one is). I’m excited! A lot of upkeep but we miss our first dog so much. SO much!

Living a Dream

September 1, 2017

Today is my last day as an employee of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I first started working here in July of 2014 and today I say goodbye!

My dad was working for the Church at the time that I was hired. He helped me get a job and I’m so grateful!! I was actually looking for a job when my dad offered to send my resume to a few managers to see if any were hiring. I found out on my first wedding anniversary that I got the job! One I will never forget. The team I worked on specifically, we are called the Media Library team. We publish, maintain, create and add metadata, download options and more, the images and videos, and audio on LDS.org’s Media Library. It is the center for all of Church media. My team also helped launch the LDS Media Library app this year. They have BIG plans for the app, and more, and I cannot wait to see it come to life! So much has been in the works since before I was even hired.

Fun fact: My dad started the creation of the LDS Media Library app and my team finished it. It was originally supposed to be only for the Brethren but it changed :)

It’s been a very long, trying, exciting and fun 3 years. I’m going to miss being on Temple Square everyday. I’m going to miss going to the temple right after work, and only needing to cross the street. I’m going to miss the crappy vending machines with the stupid snack options. The ice machine has been heaven and has saved us all. I’ll miss being able to business casual, sandals/open-toed shoes… I’ll miss all of the fun birthday parties that my team throws for one another. I’m going to miss the personalized birthday cards, too!

I remember my dad most with this job. He and I worked in the same building for the three weeks that he went back to work. I miss stopping by his desk on the other side of the wall. I miss getting rides home from him. I miss the one time we rode the trax to work together, in the winter, and never rode it together again. I miss him stopping by my desk, snagging candy from the bowl and asking me how my day was going. I miss him asking me about the creepy Clown, Clownsie, and why he was sitting on the desk next to mine. Or the time when he brought my team donuts… I remember exactly where he used to park his truck too… I miss seeing it in the parking lot.

Today, I’ll turn in my badge, my parking pass and hug my friends goodbye. This job has been a dream. I have never in my life, imagined ever working for the Church, but that dream came true. Leaving on good terms, and knowing this is apart of God’s plan for me makes this departure easier. My heart aches for my dad. The building we used to work in together, seeing him at work, him helping me get the job… the love and support from my team and the many, many, friends of my dad when he passed away. I know that God put this job in my life for a purpose. It truly helped me get through some of the hardest days of before and after my dad passed away. Being able to stay connected to my dad’s friends has been fun and really helpful.

I’m going to miss my work bestie Shaylee so much. This girl is amazing!! I sent her resume to my boss only a few months after I was hired, and then she joined the team! We have had adventure upon adventure here. The getting stuck together in the revolving doors… the one time that I got my selfie-stick button stuck and it took 120 photos of us laughing trying to fix it. How about that time (well, every time), we had a meeting and when either one of us was missing, it was pure torture. Haha, we have basically only survived because of each other. She has listened to my endless conversations about life, missing dad, marriage joys and so much more. (What are we going to do without Skype!?) We’ve become such good friends over the year and I’m really going to miss her.

I’m so sad. It hasn’t really hit me until Tuesday and it’s just kind of been a bit sad since. I know that what’s coming next is falling into place perfectly and an answer to many impatient prayers. It’s been a good run and I’m proud of myself, what I’ve learned and who I’ve become because of it.


What’s next?


Stay tuned for tomorrow’s post!!

Featured

August 14, 2017

I wanted to blog about this because I’m so blessed by the opportunities I’ve had as a photographer. One of the network strategies with photography is tagging businesses in the photos you take of their products/services.

I took photos at a proposal for my dear friend Shelbi. Shelbi and I met when I did my very own and first styled shoot. I just love knowing her. She’s so wonderful. Her and her fiance, Josh, are getting married in September. I wanted to do a photo shoot of the two of them anyway and Josh messaged me and said it would be a perfect time to propose to her. I was sooooo stinkin’ excited. I just couldn’t believe it.

Anyway, I did share some of their images on my Instagram account. Her ring is from Shane Co. and so I tagged them in the photos. One particular photo caught their attention and they asked if they could share it on their account.

People. SHANE CO. Shane Co. asked ME if they could share MY photo on THEIR Instagram account!! :O

I was so shocked but obviously so excited. Being featured is such an honor. In the moment, as a photographer, you’re doing everything you can to make sure everything goes perfectly. Your only focus is your couple and doing nothing but your very best for them. When someone shares how much they love your work and want to share it as well just really makes up for all of the craziness or the stress or shows you that hard work pays off. I can’t believe I was featured on Shane Co.’s Instagram.

Another feature was one I was not expecting. One that I really didn’t know about until I caught it while scrolling through Instagram. I had taken images of the Jordan River Temple before a baptism photo shoot a couple of years ago. The Church offers the ability to submit your photography to them, in exchange for being able to share them on any social media platform. You retain the copyrights to the photos, but the agreement you sign allows them to share. They can’t always give credit because of the high-submission rate they have but they do when they can.

I was shocked. My chin literally dropped to the floor. One of my biggest dreams in life is to be featured with the Church. I submitted those photos to be used however because I loved them so much. After working in the Media Library for the Church, where we publish images and videos on lds.org, I dreamed of them using one of my images on their website for others to use and share. This was obviously shared on an Instagram account but it doesn’t matter to me.

They didn’t give me credit, but I’m not mad. At all. I did comment and say that I took the photo and a few people like the comment but it didn’t matter to me. My dream had come true. The Church shared an image that I worked hard to create. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I know the likes were probably for the announcement of the open house and dedication for the Jordan River Temple but I didn’t care. It could have received 0 likes and I still would have been just as happy!!

I miss photography so much. I want to pick it back up every single day. It’s been a rough journey for me but it truly was something that I could use as an escape. It really touched my soul in a way that any other hobbies I tried. Maybe I’ll pick it back up in the future. I got a new camera. It’s a SONY mirrorless camera, the a6000, and I don’t know how to use it very well. I’m terrified actually. That’s why I haven’t picked it back up. It’s a crop-frame and the lens’ are $$$$$$$$$$$$$. But we’ll see.

I love dreaming and creating dreams. They’re so beneficial to life!

That Entrepreneur Life – Multipotentialite

June 16, 2017

According to Wikipedia (the most untrusted website) a Multipotentialite is:

An educational and psychological term referring to a pattern found among intellectually gifted individuals. [Multipotentialites] generally have diverse interests across numerous domains and may be capable of success in many endeavors or professions, they are confronted with unique decisions as a result of these choices.

AKA we never know what she is doing because she always changes her mind.


The first thing that came to my mind was, is this really a thing? I laughed about it for a bit the other day, seriously and laughing at the idea of it. Someone must have made this word up. It totally sounds like a made up word. And maybe it is, I’ll never know. But after doing more research, and watching this awesome TED talk, I’m starting to finally feel understood.

I can’t even begin to tell you/express how embarrassing it is to constantly be jumping from the next adventure to the next and hearing from others how it all just looks crazy and they just never know what I’m up to. Clients won’t want to book me because they’re afraid I’ll just cancel or change my mind on them. Nobody will want to buy my cute stickers that I make, in my Etsy shop, because there are soooo many people who already do. And my newest adventure, nail school? Yeah, I won’t be able to make enough to pay back what I spent on schooling… it’s depressing and extremely frustrating.

It’s a daily, consistent battle with myself. Do I really need to do anything at all? Do I really need to just find one thing? Can I really just enjoy having a job and nothing else? Can I handle just coming home and not having anything to do and be content with that? Do I really have the courage to give up my photography business, throw the nail school idea out the window, and believe that my designs for Etsy aren’t going to interest anyone?

Nobody is at fault here, and nobody has made these decisions or caused these questions. It’s how I’m wired. It’s just who I am. Entrepreneur? Probably, I can definitely be that. Creative? It’s my favorite outlet for ALL of my emotions. Each time I was in the hospital, my favorite therapy session was art therapy. I always felt most calm, most “in my element,” and most content. It’s the real deal for me.


I’m just ready to accept that I’m always going to be changing interests. I don’t have a “calling.” If I do, there’s definitely more than one. I’m happiest knowing that I can do and be whatever I want to be. I don’t have to be a doctor just because I’m really smart. I don’t have to be a wedding photographer just because I know how to use a camera. I can make all the flippin’ stickers I want because if no one else uses them, I know I will. I guess the price I pay for following many of my interests is the frustration that comes with road blocks. I’m sure it’ll always be that way. But I know, hope, believe and have faith in myself, and that I can do anything I put my mind and heart into.

 

Are you a multipotentialite? Let’s be friends!

xoxo

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