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That Entrepreneur Life – Multipotentialite

Ashley Ziegler headshot by Abbey Kyhl

According to Wikipedia (the most untrusted website) a Multipotentialite is:

An educational and psychological term referring to a pattern found among intellectually gifted individuals. [Multipotentialites] generally have diverse interests across numerous domains and may be capable of success in many endeavors or professions, they are confronted with unique decisions as a result of these choices.

AKA we never know what she is doing because she always changes her mind.


The first thing that came to my mind was, is this really a thing? I laughed about it for a bit the other day, seriously and laughing at the idea of it. Someone must have made this word up. It totally sounds like a made up word. And maybe it is, I’ll never know. But after doing more research, and watching this awesome TED talk, I’m starting to finally feel understood.

I can’t even begin to tell you/express how embarrassing it is to constantly be jumping from the next adventure to the next and hearing from others how it all just looks crazy and they just never know what I’m up to. Clients won’t want to book me because they’re afraid I’ll just cancel or change my mind on them. Nobody will want to buy my cute stickers that I make, in my Etsy shop, because there are soooo many people who already do. And my newest adventure, nail school? Yeah, I won’t be able to make enough to pay back what I spent on schooling… it’s depressing and extremely frustrating.

It’s a daily, consistent battle with myself. Do I really need to do anything at all? Do I really need to just find one thing? Can I really just enjoy having a job and nothing else? Can I handle just coming home and not having anything to do and be content with that? Do I really have the courage to give up my photography business, throw the nail school idea out the window, and believe that my designs for Etsy aren’t going to interest anyone?

Nobody is at fault here, and nobody has made these decisions or caused these questions. It’s how I’m wired. It’s just who I am. Entrepreneur? Probably, I can definitely be that. Creative? It’s my favorite outlet for ALL of my emotions. Each time I was in the hospital, my favorite therapy session was art therapy. I always felt most calm, most “in my element,” and most content. It’s the real deal for me.


I’m just ready to accept that I’m always going to be changing interests. I don’t have a “calling.” If I do, there’s definitely more than one. I’m happiest knowing that I can do and be whatever I want to be. I don’t have to be a doctor just because I’m really smart. I don’t have to be a wedding photographer just because I know how to use a camera. I can make all the flippin’ stickers I want because if no one else uses them, I know I will. I guess the price I pay for following many of my interests is the frustration that comes with road blocks. I’m sure it’ll always be that way. But I know, hope, believe and have faith in myself, and that I can do anything I put my mind and heart into.

 

Are you a multipotentialite? Let’s be friends!

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What makes me happy as a photographer

I met up with a really good friend today and we both had a very much-needed talk. It was so great. She (probably unknowingly) helped me make decisions that I was just so afraid to make. But one of them was making the decision and move forward with it. When I started second-shooting with her last year, I was having the time of my life. My skills shot through the roof and I couldn’t believe my eyes. I can’t even tell you what it was but something just happened.

It was around the time my dad had passed away. He was my biggest connection with photography and I just wasn’t sure I could keep doing this as a business. I had invested so much time and $$$$$$$$ and I didn’t want to be a failure. It was what I needed, second-shooting. I loved it. I loved assisting and helping. I loved being that person that someone could rely on. I loved being there to help and still be apart of something so sweet and amazing and LEARN. I learned SO much from her. In fact, I learned so much from ALL of my photographer friends who let me assist and/or second-shoot. 

Things come into our lives for a reason, and lately for mine, they’ve been coming in seasons and that’s it. So, let’s get to the point so I can quit rambling. 


Remember when I blogged about stepping down and doing it as more of a hobby business? Today I finally feel ready to be true to myself and my business.

I never wanted to admit this because I didn’t want people to judge me or attack me for various reasons. I am a Mormon, I am of the LDS-faith, I am a Christian… I live, eat, sleep, breathe the gospel of Jesus Christ and God. So please don’t judge me before taking a deep breath and waiting an hour before you say something, if you do.

I only want to shoot Mormon temple exits, couples and family photos. I don’t want to shoot receptions, or engagements or bridals. I love temple coverage! I just do, it’s where I feel my strongest and most of my passion. This isn’t against anyone, this isn’t because of someone (past, present, future client, friend, family, photographer, etc). This is a personal choice based off of experiences, a lot of prayer, a lot of waiting and learning, and being patient.

But what I want even more for myself and my camera is to live my life and record the happy and everyday moments. I want to start carrying my camera around and take video and photos of my husband and I, our live, adventures, family, friends. I just want to shoot (like my sweet friend said today), I just want to shoot. I want to be me. I’m ready for the next season.

What do I shoot that makes me unbelievably happy?

• LDS Temples

• My sisters family

• Pretty flowers and nature

• Couples exiting the temple after their sealing

• Sunrises and sunsets

• Birthday photos for my nephews

• Lucy — even if they are blurry

• I love taking photographs like the ones on my Instagram

 

I love printing photos and scrapbooking. I love blogging and posting IG photos of temples and quotes to inspire and uplift. I love pretty feeds with purpose. I want to shoot these things because I want to and it’s what makes me happy and starting today, I’m going to be doing just that. I’m shooting for me, and temple coverage only (and still available for second-shooting). I’m only going to explain myself once because I need to be 100% happy and true to myself or everything else in my life will not succeed. Where my business will end up next year, I’m not sure. Am I content with shooting these things that make me unbelievably happy? You bet your bottom dollar.

***Disclaimer: my website will still be up for the year, my Facebook page will be up for the year, my Instagram will still exist. As I adjust to the changes over the coming months, these things will not change.

Book Review: Quitter by Jon Acuff

Book Review: Quitter by Jon Acuff by Ashley Ziegler

Quitter: Turning Your Job into a Dream and Your Dream into a Job by Jon Acuff★★★★★

Book Review: Quitter by Jon Acuff by Ashley ZieglerLast November/December, I was contemplating quitting my job and taking photography full-time. Obviously there were a lot of things that needed to be done in order to make this possible. It was really hard and I just wanted to make the jump already but knew that financially, we just weren’t able to make that happen yet. My friend Rachel recommended this book and I’d heard of it a few times but my attitude towards it was not the greatest. I finally ordered the eBook edition on my Kindle Fire and began reading. It was so good I couldn’t put it down. It wasn’t the average self-help/business book but the experiences he shared, the thoughts he shared were just incredible. Everything he taught, he had an experience in his life to relate it too which was really nice to read. Sometimes you can get a list of 5 things to do to quit your job but nobody actually relates to it. This book is great for anyone, especially those who just want to quit their job to fulfill their dream job! I give it 5 stars! Fantastic read!

Weekend Recap

My weekend was pretty good. I spent all Saturday with Brady and catching up on sleep. After making the decision to cut ties with my business, I was left feeling emotionally exhausted. My cute nephew’s birthday party was that evening and Brady and I were both able to go.

I got to hold cute babies! :) I love babies. On Sunday Brady and I went to church and stayed all three hours! I’m sure he’d be able to but I’ve been having a hard time staying all three hours. The last hour was the hardest which is sad because I love Relief Society.

I’m feeling so drained from technology. Just thinking about using a computer or my phone one more time just gives me a migraine. I’m totally feeling burnout but I’m also feeling so relieved. I just want to come home and read a book, or blog, or watch a tv show or something like I did when I was first married, before I started this photography journey. I’m not angry nor do I regret doing photography. I’m just looking forward to change.

I was doing my March Powersheets prep this morning and it was so nice to put down things that I actually want to do in my free time instead of just work work work work work work. I don’t have a whole lot going on this week. Therapy, a bridal session, work.. maybe a few other things but not much. Maybe I’ll be able to get some exercise in! Oh! I definitely want to go to the temple so if you’re down, hit me up and we’ll go.

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I’m Raising My White Flag

I’m calling it. This isn’t a cry for help. This isn’t a pity party. This isn’t impatient living. I’m tired and I’m exhausted. It’s time to just set it down and walk away…

I wonder why I always feel so obligated to blog about decisions I make or personal feelings on silly subjects. Today is one of those days but I need to get it off my chest somehow.

 I think (maybe not) everyone has a moment in their life where there’s too much pressure and they crack. They’re trying to do and be too much. And for what reason? — I’m currently in the middle of that, right now.

This thinking has been going on for quite some time. I feel it’s time to do something about it. I’m extremely sad and heartbroken but I know that these decisions are what’s best for my life, my marriage and my future. Mainly my sanity though.

I never once pictured my life with anxiety and depression. I never imagined myself failing at college. I told myself I would never live my life without graduating. I always knew what I wanted to do with my life. But I don’t anymore. I’ve experienced some weird self-pondering and loneliness. I feel lost, unable to identify why I’m feeling like I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, or what I want to spend the rest of my life doing. I know I want to be a mom, but that’s about it.

I know that life happens and sometimes, it’s out of our control. I just never thought it would get this out of control for me.


There are a few things that I need to cut out of my life and there’s no other way to make it happen other than just doing it.

  • My personal photography business
  • Social media
  • Blogging
  • College

Now before you freak out or jump to conclusions or reasoning, just hear me out.

My photography business, it has been everything and more. I cannot not even believe the experiences I have had with this business. How I have grown as an individual and the skills I have learned are never going to change or go away. I’m not going to call it quits, close my doors and never speak of it again. I’ve decided to keep my business but as a hobby business. I love assisting/second-shooting, and the occasional photo shoot but I won’t be taking or advertising for new clients starting March 1st. Why so soon? I need time to figure out how to handle all of this change without the work of new clients. Everyone that has booked before February 23, 2017 will still be served and taken care of the exact same way I have always served my brides. Ashley Ziegler Photography still exists, and it will, but things will be different from here on out.

Social Media, going along with my business… I’ll be changing up my social media. I’m going to cleanup my Facebook and rid it of unnecessary things, groups, pages and stuff that just doesn’t work for me anymore. I want to get rid of Facebook but my family is on there and it’s still a popular platform.

Blogging, blogging schmogging. Why do I feel so much unnecessary pressure to blog? It’s just not an interest to me any more. I like reading blogs, commenting and occasionally posting about really cool things in my life but I’m ready to let it go, the expectation, the daily task and just let it be. I feel this phase in my life has come and gone. I will still be blogging here and networking with other bloggers about things that I love. The “unnecessary pressure” that I feel is to host a lot of giveaways or ads or sponsored posts. I am also doing virtual assisting so I’ll be learning to blog for that as well. I want to gear my blog more towards sharing my love for the Gospel of Jesus Christ which doesn’t give me the “unnecessary pressure” that I feel with blogging about other topics. I just like to read those kind of posts.

College, I never thought I’d include this one. I’ve been “trying” to go to college and get a degree for 7 years now. That is a REALLY long time to be in school and have nothing to show for it. Granted, a lot of events happened that were most definitely not planned but recently feeling this way and really not knowing what I want to do for my life, I think it’s best that I end my journey here and (maybe) come back at a better time.


It’s a little weird that these things are the stuff that is contributing to my life and my feelings right now and that they speak the loudest when it comes to cutting out the unnecessary. I am deeply saddened and I know I’ll move past these feelings but I need to live my life and as embarrassing or shameful quitting these things are/is… I know it needs to happen and I know it will be for the better.